Have you ever?

"You only lose who you get too close to!"

Have you ever been in a messier state that you start to appreciate the presence of someone that you met just recently? Has your world somehow changed by their presence that you have found a way to get your mind over some other person or situations that threatens your peace of mind or some you want to completely escape from? You might not know them so well, their secrets, or the intentions that they have for you, but there may be these small gestures of support or maybe the things that you have in common that make you feel occupied in a good way whenever you're with them.

Have you ever looked at them and just thought how beautiful the distance and the limitations were and how you will never let them too close even if there was a chance? And you start wishing that you would have stayed with this distance with someone you wanna get your mind off of, someone that you've already let in your life and has managed to mess with your feelings, so that you wouldn't never have gotten your feelings hurt, but can't get back to being distant again without completely losing them?

You start to think what you have right now with the almost-stranger is beautiful due to how detached it seems to be. You have no commitment to them, no bond, no feelings, but maybe good memories, laughs and conversations and you are so sure that they can't break your walls down nor hurt you in any way because you absolutely haven't given any part of your heart to them. You start to appreciate how that person is not capable of hurting you in any manner and start getting comfortable and feel safe around them. But unknowingly, haven't you given them a chance to get to know the real you and just maybe lowered your walls a little bit for them? Haven't you been so sure they won't ever use your weaknesses or your deepest fears, they come to know from you, against you?

Have the thought ever crossed your mind that this was exactly how you have started lowering your guard for the people who have earlier hurt you or is hurting you right now, who you have now completely let in to your life and given your time and heart to? At first, didn't you just adore the unfamiliarity, that you were so sure there won't be any damage caused to you from them?  Didn't you have so much faith in yourself that they were gonna be just a stranger that made you feel positive?

Have you ever realized that the unfamiliarity becomes familiar with time, and you get attached to how safe and comfortable you feel around someone new if you keep feeding these thoughts to your mind? Have you ever been hurt by someone who you were so sure wasn't gonna be a big part of your life? Have you ever lowered your guard for, unknowingly?  Have you ever shared your secrets with someone holding so much faith that they will never expose them as much you would never do that? Have you ever started hating what you loved to do, cause you lost someone who you used to work together with? But the worst of all, have you ever thought someone was gonna stay in your life forever, that someone was gonna be a life-long friend but they just turned out to be just another stranger who gave you so much pain?
Well.. maybe you shouldn't have!