Scars till eternity

I hate the need to feel occupied by something, literally anything that takes my away from the scars I'm given to carry in my life for an eternity. They say what defines you is how high you rise after the fall, but the second you start doubting yourself whether you've really risen from the fall or just pretended to have, everything falls apart! AGAIN! You know you're apparently stronger than before, you feel it within you. but how much? For how long? for some scars are scars of a lifetime!😔